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25 August 2007 @ 01:22 pm
Fic for Mod Challenge at Nekid Spike: The Experiment  

The lovely [info]raemcnasked for a Spike/Oz as one of my monthly mod challenges over at [info]nekid_spike. So, here it is!

It's NC-17 (yeah, I know - shocker, huh?) and set during Season 4 of Buffy.





The Experiment
 
Spike awoke to the sound of growling.
 
And not the comfortable, familiar growling of any of his family – not that he had heard that for a while – but wild, savage animal growling. Oh bollocks.
 
“Nice doggy,” he ventured as he slowly backed away, trying not to panic as he fetched up against the white, clinical wall. And just which sadistic fuck had put a werewolf into his cell…? It wasn’t bleeding well right!
 
He saw that the powerful beast was preparing to pounce, and he slipped into game face, realising that he would have no choice but to fight. He couldn’t see it ending well in this small, spare room with no space to run or manoeuvre.
 
He cried out as the wolf sprang at him, his furious yell morphing into shock as the expected crushing weight slamming into his chest did not transpire. Instead, he got a lapful of naked boy.
 
Wow, it must be his lucky day.
 
“Spike,” said the kid in some fear as he looked up at the vampire, who still had his arms wrapped around him and appeared to be looking at him in surprise. Although it was kinda hard to tell – just where did their eyebrows go when they got all bumpy…?
 
Spike shook back into his human visage. “Oh. You’re Red’s plaything, right?” he asked in recognition. Actually, now that he was so close, he could detect traces of Willow’s scent.
 
“Yeah, Oz,” he clarified. “Nice to see you again,” he added sardonically.
 
“So…werewolf, huh?”
 
“Yep. Uh, Spike?”
 
“Yeah?”
 
“Do you think maybe I could get up now?”
 
“Hmmm? Oh, right. Sorry,” he said sheepishly as he released his hold. The kid was really kinda delicate-looking, which provided a nice contrast to the power that Spike could now sense thrumming through him, even with the wolf safely tucked away.
 
Oz stood up and backed away from the vampire, looking mournfully down at his naked form. He felt more than a little exposed and helpless as he stood there shivering while Spike studied him openly. He resisted the urge to flutter his hands to cover himself up, concentrating instead on trying to puzzle out where he was.
 
“Some kind of underground testing facility,” explained Spike, seeing the way that Oz was looking around the cell. “Run by humans – from wot I can gather they’re rounding up all the demons they can and performing experiments. Motherfuckers,” he spat. “’S been getting pretty crowded, which must be why we’re roomies.”
 
“Huh.”
 
“You’re taking it rather well,” he said, almost crossly.
 
Oz shrugged. Actually, he was not happy at all. In fact, he would go so far as to say that he was decidedly unhappy to find himself locked in a room with a dangerous vampire, naked and weapon-less, but what could he do about it?
 
“Don’t talk much, do ya?”
 
“Not so much.”
 
Spike seemed to ponder this, and then smiled. “Probably for the best. Quite a relief really. Only guy I’ve ever bunked with was Angelus and you couldn’t shut him the fuck up for love nor money. Well, actually, I never really tried either of those things, but smacking him round the head definitely didn’t work. And neither did…er…well, that’s not the point.”
 
Oz frowned. He wondered what else hadn’t shut up Angelus up, but then decided that he really didn’t want to know. “Angel’s not so big on chatting any more,” he said hesitantly, questioning the wisdom of apparently striking up a conversation with the Big Bad.
 
“Yeah, I know. That was the only saving grace of him turning into a great, hulking, brooding, stupid-haired, nancy pouf,” he stated, growling low in his throat at the thought.
 
Oz calmly backed up a step or two, trying not to worry when he encountered cold wall.
 
Noticing his retreat, Spike said, “Don’t fret, kid. I’m not going to eat you.”
 
“That’s…good. Thanks.”
 
“Don’t mention it. It’s not that I don’t want to, and I’m sure you’d taste great, but…I know you think you can’t control the wolf yet, but believe me when I say that it would put in a reappearance in a hurry if I tried to drink from you. And a fight with a great, furry powerball in a squitty little prison just ain’t on my to-do list today.”
 
“Uh-huh,” nodded Oz. Well, that was…reassuring. Sort of.
 
There was an uncomfortable silence, in which Oz shifted from foot to foot and Spike internally bemoaned the fact that the bastards had taken away his cigarettes. He sat down heavily on the narrow cot, thinking how nice it would be to have a taste of all that sweet, tangy boy blood, thick with hormones. But it was true what he had said: if he tried it, he was likely to end up with a mouth full of fur and a few new holes.
 
He cast an appraising glance at Oz. The kid was small, but had a wiry strength and a quiet intensity about him. Raking his eyes over the naked body, he wondered whether a taste of sweet, tangy boy skin might not suffice just as well. He felt the first tendrils of lust snake through him and he tried not to grin predatorily.
 
“You cold?” he asked conversationally, seeing the light pebbling of goose-flesh over the kid’s bronzed skin.
 
“I’m ok,” he shrugged, looking over to see that the vampire was leaning back on his elbows, legs sprawled almost obscenely.
 
“You could get under the covers?” suggested Spike, trying to sound improbably innocent.
 
“Thanks, but…no. You could hand me one of those sheets?”
 
“I could,” agreed Spike, making no attempt to do so.
 
Oz watched him as he casually shifted, adjusting his position slightly. He tried not to notice the way that his groin was on display. Damn it! Ever since the wolf, he had been finding the most disturbing things irrationally appealing – and if being drawn to an evil, smirking, deadly creature of the night wasn’t irrational, then he didn’t know what was.
 
Taking a deep breath to compose himself, he caught the scent of the vampire’s low-key arousal – another lupine perk. His eyes flew wide and irresistibly fixated on the front of Spike’s jeans, where a bulge was slowly forming. Oh crap. This was bad.
 
Spike caught the look and laughed. Ah, so the kid kept his senses even when doggy retreated, did he? Excellent. Deliberately, he ran his hand down his torso and over one hip, leaving it to rest framing his burgeoning erection. “See anything you like?”
 
Oz snapped his eyes away from the vampire’s groin and sidled along the wall, further away from the cot. He suddenly wished that he wasn’t naked. He closed his eyes and tried to concentrate on not allowing the demon inside to respond. It occurred to him that he would rather that Spike was trying to drain him than this.
 
“C’mere, fido,” grinned the vampire, chuckling low and dark. The sound was disturbingly seductive.
 
“I don’t think so, Spike.”
 
“Oh, come on… Know you can smell me, kid. But, don’t forget, I can smell you too. And you know wot I’m getting? Delicious wafts of lust. You wanna play, dontcha?”
 
“No,” he denied.
 
“The demon does…I can feel it. Wants to know how good at sucking cock I am after more ‘n a century of practice…Wants to know wot it feels like to give in to that submissive canine urge and roll over for me…”
 
“Shut up!” Oz helplessly felt his dick hardening at the words. He breathed hard, trying to control himself, but that just drew the ever more potent scent of Spike’s lust into him. He felt as though he was swimming in deep, heady musk.
 
Spike grinned, deciding that he liked the Initiative much better than he had a few minutes ago. How thoughtful of them to give him a little playmate. He started stroking himself through his jeans, feeling his shaft growing to full hardness within the confines, deliberately making little groans and grunts.
 
“I’ll bet Red doesn’t scratch that itch for ya, does she? Doesn’t get deep inside where the wolf lives, satisfying the darkness and the hunger? I’ll give you wot you need…Teach some new tricks: ‘beg’ is my own personal favourite…”
 
Oz turned towards him and snarled, eyes flashing black for an instant, and Spike knew that he’d won. Even if the boy changed, it wouldn’t be in defensive panic, so he was no longer overly dangerous. The vampire leaped from the bed with frightening speed and pinned him up against the wall.
 
Oz grunted and turned his head to the side, trying to escape the sudden proximity of Spike’s vamped face, bent down towards him. He closed his eyes, all too acutely aware of the feel of cotton and denim against his naked skin. As Spike dragged a wet tongue up his throat, he gasped harshly and shuddered with desire.
 
“Oh yeah, you want it; isn’t that right?” mumbled the vampire against his skin, nipping lightly to draw small beads of blood. He moaned at the taste: full of stormy emotions, moonlight and caged power.
 
“No,” denied Oz, but there was no force behind it and he involuntarily nudged his groin against Spike’s leg, even as he tried to draw the rest of his body further away, back into the wall.
 
“Doesn’t feel much like ‘no’,” commented the blond, immediately drawing his thigh up and down so that the denim rubbed over the boy’s now fully erect cock. He whimpered slightly.
 
Hating himself a little for the way that he helplessly responded to the contact, riding Spike’s thigh, Oz tried half-heartedly to shove him away. The vampire caught his wrists, pinning one to the wall and using his hold on the other to direct an unwilling hand to his groin. He forced it up and down, continuing to rhythmically rock his leg and lick the kid’s neck.
 
As well as having the wolf inside, Oz was also an adolescent boy and before too long the intensely pleasurable sensations from the stimulation proved irresistible. Panting lightly, he stopped all pretence at struggling and arched into the vampire’s hard, muscular body. As Spike experimentally loosened his grip, he found that the human continued his ministrations unaided. He let go completely.
 
“You ever wondered before wot it would feel like to have another man’s dick inside you?” he asked, speaking close to Oz’s cheek, air ghosting across the corner of his mouth. The kid shook his head.
 
“You wondering now?” continued Spike.
 
Oz opened his eyes and turned back, bringing his lips perilously close to Spike’s, which were now soft and sensual as he had slipped back into his human visage. Hesitantly, he nodded.
 
The vampire grinned. Startlingly, astoundingly, he dropped to his knees in front of Oz and immediately drew his leaking erection into his mouth. He sucked hard, dragging the flat of his tongue over the underside and savouring the taste of pre-cum. Oz nearly fainted and he had to bite back a sound that would have been almost a scream; he had never felt anything like it and a dizzying rush of lust threatened to buckle his knees. These were not the soft, tender and hesitant laps that he was used to.
 
Spike supposed it was rather unusual for a vampire to be blowing a human this way, but he wanted to loosen the boy up and besides, he liked the taste of cock a little too much to worry about anything so trifling as standard etiquette. Getting the sense that Oz was about to collapse on top of him – poor lad probably wasn’t use to much skill or finesse – Spike withdrew his head with a few lingering licks and then reached up to pull the slight man down into his lap.
 
As he landed straddling the vampire, Oz took a moment to ask himself what the fuck he thought he was doing; but then Spike’s one hand was working his dick while the other trailed between his ass cheeks, a finger rubbing teasingly over his entrance, and he suddenly couldn’t think any more. The expert ministrations were inspiring sensations that he had never experienced before and he couldn’t prevent himself wanting more.
 
And, as the blond abruptly flipped them over so that Oz was flat on his back on the stone floor with the vampire nestled between his legs, he realised that the taunt about his submissive desires was unfortunately accurate. Feeling uncomfortably like a puppy that had rolled over to bare his belly, he didn’t struggle against Spike, but waited breathlessly for whatever was coming next.
 
Smiling, watching the dilated green eyes burn with fear and lust, the vampire sucked two of his own fingers into his mouth and changed briefly to slice a fang into them. Once they were coated with spit and blood, he manoeuvred the hand between them and forced them inside the boy, delighted to note that he moaned and thrust up into the sharp and unfamiliar pain.
 
Oz noticed the uncomfortable cold of the floor and the heavy weight of Spike and he was aware that he was in some pain, on his way to more and that he should be feeling afraid and outraged and disgusted. But all that he could feel was the heat and pleasure infusing him, calling to something dark and primal within him. He unconsciously opened his legs wider, resisting the insane urge to howl.
 
Spike was surprised by the boy and found himself itching to be inside. He would have continued even if Oz hadn’t been so obviously willing, but he preferred it this way: to be able to touch something deep and dark and powerful, to play with fire. Forcing himself on a helpless victim had always been more Angelus’ style than his.
 
“It’s gonna hurt,” he warned, continuing to pump the kid’s dick as he popped open his jeans and used the last of the blood to lubricate himself. “Try to use the wolf; tap into the strength, yeah?”  
 
Oz nodded, concentrating on the intense excitement racing through him, scorching through his veins. This was so very wrong, but he just couldn’t seem to care.
 
As Spike pushed inside forcefully, he used his weight to keep the human pinned down, still jacking him off as a distraction. He felt him arch up violently, crying out through gritted teeth as his eyes swam with inky blossoms. Hopelessly excited, Spike gave him spare seconds to adjust before immediately thrusting in a hard, fast rhythm.
 
They fucked quickly, not quite brutally, on the ground, Oz gripping tightly to the vampire and surrendering entirely to physical sensation. The pain just seemed to heighten it, and Oz supposed that he wasn’t overly surprised about that considering how things had been with Veruca.
 
“So hungry for it,” murmured Spike, running tongue and teeth over the kid’s jaw, changing the angle of his thrusts and knowing that he had shown him something new when he shouted and bucked up ferociously. He sped up the motion of his hand, realising that the boy couldn’t last much longer and wanting to bring him to the edge before plunging his fangs deep.
 
He was over-excited himself by the way that this one person encompassed so many of the things he most liked. Human and warm and fragile, yet strong and preternatural and primordial too, both sweet and dark. His virgin ass was hot and tight, bleeding from the onslaught, but he liked it and was greedily pushing back for more. Spike felt his balls clench and draw up towards his body, false heat pooling in his groin.
 
As Oz shuddered, writhed and shouted out his powerful release, Spike bit deep and took long pulls of his rich, hybrid blood, tasting the pleasure as the smell of cum assaulted him. Grunting harshly, holding the boy in an iron grip hard enough to bruise, he barely managed three more strokes before he succumbed too, shooting long jets of seed inside Oz, whose muscles still fluttered and clenched.
 
As the fiery ecstasy began to ebb, Spike let the demon recede and kissed the human for the first time, caught up in the moment. Oz responded, tasting spent passion and cigarettes, wondering why he should be more disturbed that he was kissing the vampire than that he’d fucked him. He pushed the thought away, relaxing into the cool, wet attentions of Spike.
 
The kid was practically passing out from the force of his orgasm, his brain trying to offline to escape consideration of what he had done and how much he’d enjoyed it. Spike withdrew from him and lifted him gently, laying him down on the narrow bed. Quickly stripping out of the now cum-stained clothes that he hadn’t bothered to shed before, he threw himself down as well. It was necessary to fold himself half over the boy so that they would both fit and he did so, nuzzling close to the warmth and life.
 
Within moments they were both asleep.
 
 
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
 
“Well, that was certainly unexpected,” commented Professor Walsh, writing something on her clipboard as she stared at the monitor with a clinically interested expression.
 
Riley Finn swallowed audibly behind her, mouth working as he tried to come up with an appropriate response.
 
Finally, he stuttered, “Perhaps I should go down and…transfer one of the hostiles to a different cell.”
 
“An excellent idea, Riley. It will be fascinating to observe whether any similar phenomenon occurs. Please carry on.”
 
“Yes, ma’am,” he replied, hurrying out of the room, his gait slightly hobbled.
 
He let himself into Cell 5B and locked it behind him, sidling along the north wall until he was beneath where he knew the camera feed to be hidden. As he noticed the two naked bodies begin to stir, he quickly reached up and prised open the disguised hatch, pulling out the optic wires. Somewhere above him, a screen went dead.
 
Hostile 17 – the vampire – looked up at him and grinned, scenting the air.
 
“Come to perform an experiment of your own, soldier boy?”
 
 
THE END.
 
 
 
Current Location: London
Current Mood: calm
 
 
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pretty pink porn master jedi[info]vamptastica on August 25th, 2007 01:27 pm (UTC)
GAHHHHHHHHHHH hot hot hot...i loved that. always did like Oz and with spike he's uber yum. :D


OH i kinda came up with an idea for our fic well that we can work with or discard either one but yeah.

vamp/au (oh yes it can be done dammit) - Angelus is a professor at UCLA teaching night courses (philosophy or poetry or something) and Spike (is either his childe already or not) and lindseys in the class to.

Angelus teaches the class cause the thought of luring pretty young rich spoiled things to their deaths is just too much fun and he gets bored. ;)

(that's as far as i got before i woke up and yes i do dream this shit. *rolls eyes*)

anyhow, it's a start? *laughs*

LOVED THIS THOUGH...and the last line, only spike would find that enticing OOOOOOOOOOOOO but he could get out maybe? hee...good spike. :D
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on August 25th, 2007 02:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much darling!

Ha ha - don't worry: I dream shit up too. Quite a few Second Circle scenes started out as dreams (smokin' hot ones, obviously...)

I LOVE that idea! Angelus is soooooo bad that it could totally happen. Perhaps Spike is his childe (i.e. is his normal self) and turns up in the class one time just to piss Angelus off. At least, that's how it starts...

Ooooooooh, so many possibilities.... *g*
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on August 25th, 2007 06:09 pm (UTC)
Oh, by the way... Did you notice the shout-out to you at the beginning of this fic? The whole 'where do their eyebrows go' thing...? *g*

What can I say, babe - you're always on my mind!
pretty pink porn master jedi[info]vamptastica on August 25th, 2007 10:26 pm (UTC)
hee..YES...i was commenting before i went to work this morning bout uh..6 am and forgot. *smacks head* but I was laughing cause dammit I WANT TO KNOW!!!


*licks you from head to toe* yummy
spikesfool[info]spikesfool on August 25th, 2007 02:19 pm (UTC)
Completely delicious. I liked it very, very much. I'm amazed over and over again at your ability to write so many great stories so quickly. *envies you*

I've never thought about Spike and Oz together before. You made it belivable, even inevitable. Encore please. I want more!
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on August 25th, 2007 06:08 pm (UTC)
Yay! Thank you so much honey! *does a little dance* I'm really happy it worked because it's not a pairing I'd thought of before either and I've never written Oz.

Envies me?!?!? No way, girl! You know how much I ADORE your work - so incredibly awesome. Eagerly awaiting Ch 8 of Going Down. I just read your reply to my comment, and believe me darling - you deserve all the praise and more. And you're going to read some SC? Naaaawwww, thanks hon! *g*

*hugs*
Zoe: ot3[info]zoesmith on August 25th, 2007 04:22 pm (UTC)
Oh, hun, that was funny and hot and absolutely delicious!! I loved your Oz voice (naturally); his interactions with Spike were really spot on and sexy as hell!

He wondered what else hadn’t shut up Angelus up, but then decided that he really didn’t want to know.
Well, I’d really really want to know but maybe that’s just me ;)

“Come to perform an experiment of your own, soldier boy?”
Hey, now that’s just evil! *pouts*

*runs to watch “new moon rising” for some Oz nakedness*

kisses and hugs!
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on August 25th, 2007 06:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much my lovely girl!

I'm sure that there were many and varied sordid and nasty things that did not shut Angelus up... Yum...

Hope you enjoy your Oz nakedness honey!

*snuggles*
UncagedMuse: ZOMGyoungfrank[info]raemcn on August 26th, 2007 01:39 am (UTC)
YUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMMM! Thank you so very, very much! This is so very HAWT and DELICIOUS! *drools* More than I could have imagined it to be.

Now I'm going to go put my sick rear in bed. I'm so glad I checked my email when I got in from work before falling face first into the mattress.

*hugs you tight*
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on August 26th, 2007 08:19 am (UTC)
YAY!!!! I'm so glad that you enjoyed it, sweetie!

I'm really sorry that you're sick. I hope that you sleep well and have pleasant dreams ;-)

*hugs hard*
Scarlet: Oz- toy[info]ourmenagerie on August 26th, 2007 02:08 am (UTC)
Ohhh.... Yummmm! That was totally hot, god I never see enough spike/oz fics around. *hug you and [info]raemcn asking for it*
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on August 26th, 2007 08:21 am (UTC)
Thank you very much, sweetie! I'm glad that you found it hot - I've never written the pairing before so I was a little worried! *hugs and kisses*
The Purple One: fanbot prince of hell[info]purpledodah on September 12th, 2007 11:35 am (UTC)
Hi sweetie, I'm back and playing catch up, lurking in your lj today. Hope you don't mind. Loved this so hot. Don't think reading this is doing my stiches any good, nope heavy breathing not good.
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on September 12th, 2007 04:42 pm (UTC)
I'm so happy you've had a day looking through my stuff, though very concerned that I haven't helped you convalesce very much!
[info]jade_hellia on September 16th, 2007 06:34 am (UTC)
Would you perhaps, pretty please do a sequel? Y'know, with Riley? Pretty, pretty please? Oh yeah, and I love that last line "Come to perform an experiment of your own, soldier boy?" Keep writing!
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on September 16th, 2007 09:22 am (UTC)
Thanks sweetie, I'm glad you enjoyed it!

I don't think I'm capable of writing a sequel! I don't find the Oz pairing easy to write. However, I'm definitely thinking of doing a Spike/Riley!
jasonsnene[info]jasonsnene on September 22nd, 2007 01:09 am (UTC)
It's all your fault
Ch 41. It'll be forever before it gets posted but remember this...ch 41...it's all your fault. :)
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on September 22nd, 2007 08:44 am (UTC)
Re: It's all your fault
Oooooooooh, how intriguing! I look forward to it! *g*
ClawofCat: onyourknees[info]clawofcat on October 8th, 2007 07:59 pm (UTC)
Hey, babe. I was checking out the noms at Rogue Poets, saw this and thought "*shrug*, what the heck?" What a nifty little fic this was. I thoroughly enjoyed it. There's something about rare pairings that I find so cool, so to see little-used Oz here with Spike was fabu. Your characterizations of both of them were really strong. Oz is a guy of few words, so it was really Spike leading the action, which I loved. Nothing better than dirty talking Spike.

What I enjoyed most about this fic, was this: "It's gonna hurt. Try to tap into the wolf for the strength, yeah?"
Spike can be a brutal fella, but he also tries to make it as good as he can (usually). And I love me some meta in sex scenes, especially this, where he makes note of the inner strength that being a demon brings. It made me think of what it is to be a slayer and the type of supernatural strength they have to tap into to forge through the pain. What is it about demons being hard-wired to receive pain? Is it that they physically can take it, or do they psychologically desire it?

Don't get me wrong though, this was also hot as hell! I just try leaving fairly constructive feedback since it's generally more helpful than "Guh! My loins are on fire!" *wink*
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on October 8th, 2007 08:15 pm (UTC)
Hey honey!

Um...I'm nominated at Rogue Poets?! News to me! Good news of course...

I'm really glad that you enjoyed it. Heh - the whole Oz not talking thing was pretty much because I'm not great at writing him so I took the easy option!

I like the meta in the fics as well. I actually think both of your thoughts about the pain there ring true - that they can physically handle it and that part of them desires it. I guess they are in some way naturally conditioned to want it: after all, they seek things (such as fights) that they know will cause pain. *shrugs*

Well, thank you for the feedback darling! I'm glad it inspired some pseudo-intellectual thoughts on our part, and it's always nice to know that it was hot too! ;-)
softbluebuddy: spike blue writing on rt side[info]softbluebuddy on January 4th, 2008 08:15 pm (UTC)
The Experiment
Congratulations on the nomination at Fang Fetish, Round 8 and putting the link in your announcement today.

I popped over to read this and it was great. It is clear why you were nominated.

To tell the truth, I read Confessional and Penance last night, all 5 chapters, and I was pretty much incapable of leaving any feedback. I'm still giving that some thought. This was totally different, and I loved it. Not that I didn't like what I read last night, but that was so dark and this wasn't. If that makes any sense.

I loved this with Spike and his 100 plus years of sexual experience all getting to be appreciated by Oz. What an overload of sensations. Lucky puppy.
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on January 4th, 2008 08:52 pm (UTC)
Re: The Experiment
Thank you so much honey!

I'm always amazed at how much people seem to like this story...But I think that's because I did it for a mod challenge at NS. I would never normally write a Spoz and, to be honest, it does absolutely nothing for me.

Although I agree about the "lucky puppy" ;-)

Don't worry about needing to think about Confessional and Penance! They are VERY dark and parts of them are actually hard to read, I know.
softbluebuddy: spike blue writing on rt side[info]softbluebuddy on January 4th, 2008 09:17 pm (UTC)
Re: The Experiment
Don't worry about needing to think about Confessional and Penance! They are VERY dark and parts of them are actually hard to read, I know.

Seriously, and after reading slashy stuff if I have a problem sleeping, it isn't really a bad thing, because I am imagining all sorts of savory stuff. Last night I couldn't get to sleep for some time. The only thing that I read last night was those two parts of the same story. I guess I was just thinking about a lot of things: abuses committed by people in power, how something that could have been so pure was ruined, how it had similarities with The Second Circle but how differently it ended up, I was thinking about religion and what part it played in my development as a person, why the guys trusted a Bishop at the end, thinking that murder would have been a more justified ending, and just over thinking it way too much in general.

And you had said something at the beginning of there being a little bit of plot-i-ness going on in it. I have never had that kind of reaction to reading slash, usually it is just, Wow, that was hot, and going on to read something else. That one really stuck with me. And, I am not complaining. I am not mad at all. I am impressed that your writing brought all of those issues to the surface. I could have stopped reading at any point, but I didn't.
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on January 4th, 2008 11:21 pm (UTC)
Re: The Experiment
Well, darling, let me begin by saying that I'm sorry you lost sleep over it. It was very close to the bone for most people on my flist, I know, and I hope I warned adequately against it.

Firstly, and I know that you know this but I want to say it anyway, I do not for a moment think that there are priests and (heaven forbid) Bishops like this in the real world. I pray not, at any rate. I simply took characters and put them in a situation they should never have been in.

Having said that, and this isn't something I tend to shout about, I rarely write something that doesn't have some meaning for me. I like to think about and present issues and leave it up to the reader whether or not they choose to think about/notice what I'm saying.

In this case, I spent quite a lot of time thinking about religion. I have faith in God, and support religion in general, although I don't tend to participate in all the dogma too much. However, for all the good religion can do, it also has the potential to be a horrifically damaging weapon.

Why did the boys go to the Bishop? Maybe even what Angelus did to them couldn't chase away their lingering in-bred faith in the authority of the Church. Maybe they thought a man of God would care more than an ordinary citizen. Maybe it was a cop out because they didn't want to be involved in a police investigation. *shrugs* They probably don't even know themselves.

I also threw out there the slight question mark as to whether Angelus and Caleb would always have ended up how they did without the influence of Bishop Rayne. As I think you were saying, what people in authority do when we were young can have a great influence.

Anyway...That all got a bit heavy! The thing is, I'm happy for people to read those two stories and say 'that was very wrong and dirty and some bits were hot' or whatever. I'm also happy that some people took something away from it. I just hope that it wasn't something that's going to be a cause of upset or pain, even though that's what the subject matter tends to inspire.

Thank you so much for your comments.
tamakin84_arts: Me dark[info]tamakin_arts on April 22nd, 2008 09:45 am (UTC)
Ooooeeee spoz!! HEE! I was recced this by clawofcat, bless her, im so glad i was! Twas a hawwwt ficlet hun!
Theres not enough spoz in the world, i find it a really interesting pairing, and whooot initiative makes everything better! *grins*
Poor leetle oz, all nekid and cold, bless him :P
ash_carpenter[info]ash_carpenter on April 22nd, 2008 05:32 pm (UTC)
Oooh, this is an oldie hon! Very sweet of clawofcat to rec me *blushes*

Thank you so much, glad you enjoyed it and poor wee Oz!!! ;-)